Who am I? Who are you?
Regardless of experience, aren’t we all truly one?
I open my heart and voice to you with a desire to connect and realize there is no separation between us.
Here is the start of my undetermined journey….
We all have an ‘external’ bio that gets pasted all over our world… what we do, how we got our education, what degrees we hold…. On and on. And yet, what’s our bio that has created who we ARE in this world? And what might hold us back from being truly transparent in sharing this? I like to refer to this as our ‘inner’ bio.
If you were to Google my name this is what you might find;
“Colleen holds an Advanced Level STOTT Pilates certification and completed the Instructor Trainer course in Cadillac, Chair and Barrel with Balanced Body Pilates University. She is an NASM Certified Personal Trainer and Corrective Exercise Specialist (CES)… blah blah blah
Yes, this is part of me and what I’ve created and what I love to do. However, in all my transparency, let me offer the inner me that has truly led me to my NOW.
The reality is I grew up in a family environment that was challenging, and as every family can be perceived; perfectly imperfect.
I’ve experienced and/or been witness to alcoholism, addiction, verbal, emotional, and domestic abuse, teenage pregnancy, adoption, adultery, family fights, suicide, homicide, betrayal, a questionable birth, and a mysterious disappearance. My life, from an early age, was filled with days, months, and years of therapy and self-help. It carved a path of continued self-referral and expansion. This amazing design led me to the being I am today; driven, passionate, honest, loyal, and unwilling to settle…. Or better said, expecting the best! And so it was…
Being present and here NOW is what is important. I still toggle between discernment and gullibility, compassion and indifference, right action and feeling stuck, acceptance and resistance, love and fear. However, finding the resting place in the middle ground ~ the joyful spirit within the toughness, the stillness within the chaos, the openness within the pain, and the calm within the uncertainty, is my forever aim.
And so it is…
It would feel nice to walk this journey together with you. Can we be vulnerable without judgement?….
You just like me, me just like you, we are all kindred spirits. I am opening myself to you in expressing my automatic writing with the desire to connect with YOU!
I have much love and appreciation for your contribution on any level.
We are never alone,
Big love. ♥
What I’m about to share are a couple profound experiences (teachings!) I witnessed as a young adult. It is with sincere thanks to my family for always allowing me to be who I AM. And for the courage in each of you to always be with ‘what is’.
It’s time to feel into what we are connecting with and what we are disconnecting from. Quite awhile back I had a bomb drop on my front doorstep. Well not literally a bomb but the visual of what arrived created an unexpected explosive sensation that could only be mimicked by the dropping of a bomb.
The body… the emotional body. We cannot slide out of it. It’s part of all THIS experience. So often, probably more often than I’d like, I get a rush of emotions, energy, currents that take over all my senses.